Well, my interview is coming up in a few days and I have mass amounts of butterflies in my stomach. I don't think I have ever wanted a job as much as I want this on before. I just hope it is as good a job for me as it looks, not to mention that I am actually able to get it. My interview is at 0800 on Wednesday and anyone that knows me knows I am
so not a morning person, but I will prevail! Also it will be a panel interview with 3 people! Sheesh! I can just see it now, me sitting there shaking and trying not to stutter while 3 people shoot questions at me. Great now I want to crawl into a dark corner and hide. Anyone with some sound advise? My dad is going to prep me with some questions the day before, since he has some experience on hiring panels. Maybe I should brush up on my meditation skills, can't hurt, right?
On another topic, I have dropped out of college for right now. My stress levels were through the roof, I was skipping classes, not doing any homework or studying, and I was beginning to have minor panic attacks before class (generally not a good sign), so I decided enough was enough and dropped my classes. I will likely go back next year, but I am not going to pressure myself to do so, if
I am ready when classes start then I will go back otherwise I will wait until I am ready again. My only regret is that I wasted my parents money, they paid $1700 of the $1950 for this semester. So I will be paying them $100 every time I receive a paycheck (so every two weeks) until I have paid them back not only for this semester but also for my laptop and the down payment on my car that they lent me the money for. All of that comes to a grand total of (drum roll please)... $3900. Yeah, ouch. My parents are too good to me. It is likely to take me a couple years to pay that off at $200 a month (if there are no unforseen problems), but I will pay them back.
So for those of you that don't already know, my best friend Jennifer is getting married! They have
finally set the date! Yes, on their third attempt to set a date it looks like it will be June 6, 2009. Oddly enough, only 4 days before Jen's birthday and exactly a week before mine. We went wedding dress shopping in Santa Barbara this week. I am getting way too familiar with wedding dress shops lately. It was a nice little gathering of people that went: Jen's mom, Marsha, her fiance's mom, Sandra (?), her younger sister and bridesmaid, Anna, her (and my) best friend and bridesmaid, Jessica, and of course me, the maid of honor. We went to three shops, if you count the first one which was out of business, in just over 4 hours. Jen actually thought she might make it to 4 shops (1 per hour)! I think she is nuts! She is learning as she goes though; apparently she didn't check to see if the places she wanted to go to required appointments, which was our main set back (silly girl). I know as the maid of honor I should have asked but I just assumed that her mom would have mentioned it or she would have noticed it as she was looking up places to go, my bad. Jessica thinks we should take a look at David's Bridal but I have been adament that that would be a bad idea (mom and I both think that their prices are too high for the quality, or lack there of, of the fabric and general make of the dresses), thankfully Jen agrees with me. Poor Anna is having trouble finding anything that would work for her as a bridesmaid, she is at that size between flower girl and bridesmaid that makes things difficult. Of course, I am having some trouble too but that is because I am so very curvy that the dresses they have as samples just don't fit, something that I have become pretty used to. Lol, also I have found out that apparently I am the deciding factor on what color dresses the bridesmaids get and not because I am choosy but because my skin tone is so difficult to match (I have a redhead's coloring). Jessica, of course, is having no troubles with the dresses she fits into almost all of them perfectly and none of the possible colors look bad on her, (sigh) it almost makes a girl want to hate her, no matter how much you love her any other time.
So I have decided to let my friends help me improve my (apparently) terrible taste in clothing. I have always prefered comfortable clothing over fashionable clothing, since I wear a uniform at work and (in my opinion) don't really have a reason to waste money on expensive clothing that isn't particularly comfortable or serviceable. Now that I have a serious relationship that I really want to work, I have begun listening to what is being said about my typical appearance. Man, what a downer! I dress like I'm in high school, I have too much black in my closet, my tennis shoes are ugly and manly, I walk and sit without grace, my hair looks terrible up (this one I have been hearing for years), etc. I think I would prefer to go back to peaceful oblivion. God, it just occured to me that if I actually took the time to care about my appearance my typical tardiness would be even worse! Hehe, maybe I should mention that to everyone, maybe then they would leave me alone! (Evil cackle) But no seriously, I am trying to be better.